God is always with me

Hello everyone!

For our spiritual formation class, we did a 24 hour silent and solitude retreat. This was a very interesting experience. Going into it, I was both nervous and excited.

So often I can't feel God's presence in my life. I know he is real and that he is present and working but it seems that he just skips over me. This is how I feel even though in my head I rebuke myself because I know that God doesn’t operate that way. He loves me so much and he has shown that many times over. I think that I rush through life and I miss the God moments that he is trying to give to me. I look back at my life and I remember what God has done and I realize that God is so good. But I still have moments of doubt where I just feel stuck in my faith.

So going into this retreat I thought “ok, it’s just you and me, God for 24 hours”. I was hoping he would show up but wondering if he was actually was going to. I didn’t experience anything huge but what I did experience what very significant. I was down stairs sitting on a couch in a small room and I was reading 1 Corinthians. I wasn’t doing an in-depth study or anything. I was just reading; soaking it all in. All of a sudden I felt like I was sitting on God’s lap and he was reading/speaking to me. It was a moment where I felt safe and content in God. I didn’t want it to stop. God is always with me even when I can't feel him. He sometimes chooses to open my eyes to this truth to strengthen my faith in him. It can be so easy to forget what God has done or shown me when I'm going through a hard time but God is so patient with me.

Later in class we had to do a creative project on our retreat. I ended up writing a story on ‘my moment’. God really revealed to me many feelings and emotions that were hidden inside of me regarding this revelation he gave me.

 

Thanks for your prayers!

-Sabrina